Wednesday, 3 February 2016
The descent of man...and rise of the girl (Chapter 2)
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Monday, 1 February 2016
The descent of man...and rise of the girl (Chapter 1)
This is a blog that I first wrote for Mistress Scarlett Thorne's website to help people who want to be lifestyle slaves, trannies and whores understand that they can realise their dreams. I am now going to publish a longer version of my true story in chapters on my blog starting here
How many of you surf the internet and read the hundreds of amazing kinky stories of men being forcibly transformed into girls and made to whore or transformed into a stunning TV Dominatrix and wish it could be you?
I know that there are a lot of you out there who are trapped in your drab male lives desperate to release your inner woman and indulge in all sorts of perverted, filthy activities and live the dream of a naughty slut.
How do I know? It's because I was once one of you always dreaming of what it would be like but never believing that it could possibly happen.
What is it i wanted most? To be r*ped and used for others pleasure? To give my life up to a Superior Woman? To tastes cock in my mouth as a man releases his load into my throat? To be transformed from a mundane little man to a fabulous woman? To learn to have my own slaves even? All these things and much more. Like you I sat there playing with my stupid little cock dreaming but not believing it could ever be true.
Well I AM the living proof that your kinkiest dreams can come true and that everything is possible if you are willing to put in the effort and find the right Superior to mentor you into a life in the sex trade and BDSM slavery. The great news is that you don't have to give up your other life, you just need to be brave and embrace your inner slut.
So regular readers of my little musings will know that I found my opportunity thanks to being owned by the fabulous London Mistress Scarlett Thorne. As the UK's (and probably the world's) most remarkable Dominatrix She started young and had more than a decade of experience when She decided to train me up to serve Her and now She has turned me not just into Her servants, maid and whore but into an amazing TV Dominatrix with my own dedicated slaves.
You may wonder how this can happen and think this is just another one of those first person pieces which pretend to be reality but are just fantasy. Well honey, this is the truth, every word of it. I went from being a man in a suit to a whore and Domme in my own right in just a few years.
It didn't happen overnight, it just followed a natural progression as Mistress Scarlett Thorne remorsely reshaped me into a completely new person modeled on Her demands and needs. As a man I was very mediocre, you wouldn't have picked me out in a crowd but once Mistress Scarlett had worked Her magic on me I became a stunning woman.
It all began with me turning up as a client as a one off to try to get over my secret urges and desires. Of course it did not end there and Mistress Scarlett made sure I returned and then began to gently encourage me to buy female clothes and teach me how to girl up make up and all.
Early on I thought it was just a game. I couldn't believe my luck that Mistress had taken such a personal interest in a worthless slave like me when I knew She was obviously totally Superior and very busy. I often wondered why She did. Maybe it was because I was a newby and maybe because Her remarkable perceptive powers immediately saw a girl trying to escape from the shell of a man and girl who was ready to devote her life to a Mistress.
Whatever it was, Mistress Scarlett took me under Her wing and made me Hers to the extent that I began to reorganise my work days to serve Her or make excuses to rush round if She needed something done. But even then I didn't realise how serious things would get and how deep I would go.
Then after just a few months I got a text off Her asking me to come round to help Her with a client. I remember getting the text from Mistress asking if I was available. I wasn't really but I felt so surprised, excited and honoured She would think of me that I made an excuse and raced out of work. I just could not believe my luck that I would be able to help in such a way and actually be a slut, although obviously I wasn't earning any money just an extra freeby at Mistress's disposal.
When I arrived, Mistress Scarlett dressed me up and took me into the dungeon where a TV slave called Amanda was tied up legs spread. Obviously my task was to suck him or I should say her off, although only to the point where she was about to cum. It was my first experience of providing a sexual service in that context and I loved feeling and tasting the cock as it became hard and erect in my mouth. Amanda moaned a bit and started to gently pump my face. I really wanted her warm cum to shoot down my throat, but Mistress wanted to leave both me and the slave desperately wanting more.
As I went home on the tube that night I could smell the sweat of Amanda's groin still and taste the precum which escaped before Mistress pulled me away. I ached for more and wondered if Mistress would require my services again. I wondered what it would be like to be paid for such a service but thought immediately that nobody would pay for me.
"Don't be stupid!" I told myself. I had only just begun my transformation and I still thought of myself as a clunky man in women's clothes not yet the butterfly of a girl that could emerge from that ugly chrysalis.
Nevertheless, this happened a few more times as I rushed over to the dungeon to service various slaves for Mistress Scarlett. I thought that would be it but then She did something that changed things forever...
You can find out about it in chapter 2 which will be published soon...
How many of you surf the internet and read the hundreds of amazing kinky stories of men being forcibly transformed into girls and made to whore or transformed into a stunning TV Dominatrix and wish it could be you?
I know that there are a lot of you out there who are trapped in your drab male lives desperate to release your inner woman and indulge in all sorts of perverted, filthy activities and live the dream of a naughty slut.
How do I know? It's because I was once one of you always dreaming of what it would be like but never believing that it could possibly happen.
What is it i wanted most? To be r*ped and used for others pleasure? To give my life up to a Superior Woman? To tastes cock in my mouth as a man releases his load into my throat? To be transformed from a mundane little man to a fabulous woman? To learn to have my own slaves even? All these things and much more. Like you I sat there playing with my stupid little cock dreaming but not believing it could ever be true.
Well I AM the living proof that your kinkiest dreams can come true and that everything is possible if you are willing to put in the effort and find the right Superior to mentor you into a life in the sex trade and BDSM slavery. The great news is that you don't have to give up your other life, you just need to be brave and embrace your inner slut.
So regular readers of my little musings will know that I found my opportunity thanks to being owned by the fabulous London Mistress Scarlett Thorne. As the UK's (and probably the world's) most remarkable Dominatrix She started young and had more than a decade of experience when She decided to train me up to serve Her and now She has turned me not just into Her servants, maid and whore but into an amazing TV Dominatrix with my own dedicated slaves.
You may wonder how this can happen and think this is just another one of those first person pieces which pretend to be reality but are just fantasy. Well honey, this is the truth, every word of it. I went from being a man in a suit to a whore and Domme in my own right in just a few years.
It didn't happen overnight, it just followed a natural progression as Mistress Scarlett Thorne remorsely reshaped me into a completely new person modeled on Her demands and needs. As a man I was very mediocre, you wouldn't have picked me out in a crowd but once Mistress Scarlett had worked Her magic on me I became a stunning woman.
It all began with me turning up as a client as a one off to try to get over my secret urges and desires. Of course it did not end there and Mistress Scarlett made sure I returned and then began to gently encourage me to buy female clothes and teach me how to girl up make up and all.
Early on I thought it was just a game. I couldn't believe my luck that Mistress had taken such a personal interest in a worthless slave like me when I knew She was obviously totally Superior and very busy. I often wondered why She did. Maybe it was because I was a newby and maybe because Her remarkable perceptive powers immediately saw a girl trying to escape from the shell of a man and girl who was ready to devote her life to a Mistress.
Whatever it was, Mistress Scarlett took me under Her wing and made me Hers to the extent that I began to reorganise my work days to serve Her or make excuses to rush round if She needed something done. But even then I didn't realise how serious things would get and how deep I would go.
Then after just a few months I got a text off Her asking me to come round to help Her with a client. I remember getting the text from Mistress asking if I was available. I wasn't really but I felt so surprised, excited and honoured She would think of me that I made an excuse and raced out of work. I just could not believe my luck that I would be able to help in such a way and actually be a slut, although obviously I wasn't earning any money just an extra freeby at Mistress's disposal.
When I arrived, Mistress Scarlett dressed me up and took me into the dungeon where a TV slave called Amanda was tied up legs spread. Obviously my task was to suck him or I should say her off, although only to the point where she was about to cum. It was my first experience of providing a sexual service in that context and I loved feeling and tasting the cock as it became hard and erect in my mouth. Amanda moaned a bit and started to gently pump my face. I really wanted her warm cum to shoot down my throat, but Mistress wanted to leave both me and the slave desperately wanting more.
As I went home on the tube that night I could smell the sweat of Amanda's groin still and taste the precum which escaped before Mistress pulled me away. I ached for more and wondered if Mistress would require my services again. I wondered what it would be like to be paid for such a service but thought immediately that nobody would pay for me.
"Don't be stupid!" I told myself. I had only just begun my transformation and I still thought of myself as a clunky man in women's clothes not yet the butterfly of a girl that could emerge from that ugly chrysalis.
Nevertheless, this happened a few more times as I rushed over to the dungeon to service various slaves for Mistress Scarlett. I thought that would be it but then She did something that changed things forever...
You can find out about it in chapter 2 which will be published soon...
Thursday, 31 December 2015
A slave's New Year resolutions
It's that time again where everyone gets drunk and makes rash promises for the New Year which sometimes they keep for as long as a week or two...usually involving a post Christmas diet and de-toxing from drinking too much alcohol.
Well for a slave to a fabulous Dominatrix like Mistress Scarlett Thorne this time of year should represent something much more important, a cherished moment in your relationship with the Superior Being in your miserable life where you can pledge something substantial to Her that will benefit Her life and in turn make you a better, more worthy slave (although REMEMBER you can NEVER be worthy of the huge privilege of serving a Mistress).
Having just completed my fifth year of servitude to Mistress Scarlett Thorne i have some experience on solemn promises to a Domme, most of which i have kept although some i have broken much to my great shame, regret and pain (from Mistress).
The first piece of advice is making a resolution to your Mistress and Owner is no light matter. It is a pledge that should never be broken until and if you are released from it by Mistress Herself. i am still in the process of suffering three days worth of punishment (to the second) years after i broke chastity. Other failures saw me banished from Scarlett Thorne's presence, i was extremely lucky to be forgiven. Failure is not an option, even if it is rare.
i would also suggest that you don't over promise, by which i mean promise too many things. A life of service gives you plenty of time to make many promises and for Mistress to force many more other indignities and suffering on to you. So at New Year make one big promise, focus on it and make sure you keep it.
In terms of what you promise it should involve things which are genuinely useful to Mistress or amuse Her. It could be to remove your hair, go on a diet, or improve your feminisation activities to make you better to be pimped out by Mistress. If you are a maid it could be simply to improve on how much time you give to Mistress and the effecitiveness of your cleaning.
my top tip though is something that materially improves your Owner's life. So you could decide to make sure you provide Her with a monthly tribute whether You session with Her or not.
This is an excellent sign of devotion and one which always pleases a Mistress. It is something i do for Scarlett Thorne, along with my almost daily service as a maid and other things. i know i am very lucky to be allowed in Her presence so much which is worth far more than any money i could ever hope to give Her.
i would advise against chastity as a New Year's resolution. This is something Mistress decides to do to you not the other way round.
So what resolution will be my promise to Mistress Scarlett Thorne for 2016?
i am already in chastity, She has forced me on to a strict diet and to give up alcohol, and i have to constantly improve on my service as a maid etc (it is never good enough and never will be), i am always striving to earn more as an escort and i pay a monthly tribute to Mistress.
One change for 2016 is to do exercises which improve my feminine shape such as sit ups for a firm tummy, back exercises to be more flexible and squats to get a bigger bum. i also plan to get surgery to improve myself as a girl and so be of more use to Scarlett Thorne and more pleasing on Her eye.
This will be my resolution for 2016, but the main promise to Mistress will be the one i make every day in my daily mantra to Her:
"Serving Scarlett Thorne is a privilege not a right, i must WORK HARDER and SUFFER MORE to deserve it".
Well for a slave to a fabulous Dominatrix like Mistress Scarlett Thorne this time of year should represent something much more important, a cherished moment in your relationship with the Superior Being in your miserable life where you can pledge something substantial to Her that will benefit Her life and in turn make you a better, more worthy slave (although REMEMBER you can NEVER be worthy of the huge privilege of serving a Mistress).
Having just completed my fifth year of servitude to Mistress Scarlett Thorne i have some experience on solemn promises to a Domme, most of which i have kept although some i have broken much to my great shame, regret and pain (from Mistress).
The first piece of advice is making a resolution to your Mistress and Owner is no light matter. It is a pledge that should never be broken until and if you are released from it by Mistress Herself. i am still in the process of suffering three days worth of punishment (to the second) years after i broke chastity. Other failures saw me banished from Scarlett Thorne's presence, i was extremely lucky to be forgiven. Failure is not an option, even if it is rare.
i would also suggest that you don't over promise, by which i mean promise too many things. A life of service gives you plenty of time to make many promises and for Mistress to force many more other indignities and suffering on to you. So at New Year make one big promise, focus on it and make sure you keep it.
In terms of what you promise it should involve things which are genuinely useful to Mistress or amuse Her. It could be to remove your hair, go on a diet, or improve your feminisation activities to make you better to be pimped out by Mistress. If you are a maid it could be simply to improve on how much time you give to Mistress and the effecitiveness of your cleaning.
my top tip though is something that materially improves your Owner's life. So you could decide to make sure you provide Her with a monthly tribute whether You session with Her or not.
This is an excellent sign of devotion and one which always pleases a Mistress. It is something i do for Scarlett Thorne, along with my almost daily service as a maid and other things. i know i am very lucky to be allowed in Her presence so much which is worth far more than any money i could ever hope to give Her.
i would advise against chastity as a New Year's resolution. This is something Mistress decides to do to you not the other way round.
So what resolution will be my promise to Mistress Scarlett Thorne for 2016?
i am already in chastity, She has forced me on to a strict diet and to give up alcohol, and i have to constantly improve on my service as a maid etc (it is never good enough and never will be), i am always striving to earn more as an escort and i pay a monthly tribute to Mistress.
One change for 2016 is to do exercises which improve my feminine shape such as sit ups for a firm tummy, back exercises to be more flexible and squats to get a bigger bum. i also plan to get surgery to improve myself as a girl and so be of more use to Scarlett Thorne and more pleasing on Her eye.
This will be my resolution for 2016, but the main promise to Mistress will be the one i make every day in my daily mantra to Her:
"Serving Scarlett Thorne is a privilege not a right, i must WORK HARDER and SUFFER MORE to deserve it".
Monday, 21 December 2015
How a slave can survive Christmas
As many of you may be aware i am something of a shopaholic...it is pretty difficult for me to walk by a shop with pretty dresses in the window without being sucked into it to explore its delights, much to Mistress Scarlett Thorne's exasperation. Heyho!
But even i have to admit in my tiny little tranny brain that Christmas has become far too commercial and the true spirit of the festival is being lost. Now i know some of you are of a religious bent and others maybe not but i think that serving a fabulous Dominatrix like London Mistress Scarlett Thorne is of huge help in getting back to what Christmas should be about.
Think of the three magi in St Matthew's Gospel or the shepherds in St Luke. They all traveled to worship a Higher Being and give gifts as best to their ability. This is why the three magi are known as "the wise men" because wisdom is knowing what MUST be done.
If there is one thing a slave should remember is that his (or sometimes her) life is insignificant and that Mistress is always a Higher Being, you should think of Her as a Goddess. So Christmas is a time when you can show your true devotion by coming to Worship Her and bring gifts to please Her (on top of the tribute You should give Her as well). There is no more beautiful and joyful act of worship and if you are lucky Mistress will then make you suffer to expedite your sins.
The gifts are reciprocal. Mistress Scarlett Thorne is extremely generous in giving you Her valuable time, doing amazing debauched things you could only dream of and allowing you to be in Her presence. There is no greater gift at any time of the year to spend time which such an amazing person.
Now it is important to remember that Mistresses do not want any old tat, surprises are good but it MUST BE something Mistress wants! Each to their means. In the Bible the poor shepherds give what little they can which is a lot in their terms and so much appreciated. The welathy wise men (like cash pigs for a Mistress) gave valuable gifts of gold (works well with Scarlett Thorne), expensive oils and nice smelling stuff (not such a good idea for Scarlett Thorne unless it is Thierry Alien perfume).
Fortunately, those who serve Mistress Scarlett Thorne have been given a guide by Her. So when you bring Her gifts get something from this list: http://www.mistressthorne.com/my-world/my-wishlist/
One last piece of advice for Scarlett Thorne's slaves...remember in the Tranny Flat it is always Christmas when Scarlett Thorne is in residence, so DON'T think you should only give Her gifts in December.
Thursday, 30 April 2015
Diary of a sissy maid (3)
Found an old diary extract...thought i would put it up. Is no nice remembering happy times even ones filled with terror of the wrath of Mistress. Of course i am such a lucky gurl that my fab life serving the amazing Mistress Scarlett Thorne continues. So i shall be posting more up to date diaries again soon.
Wednesday 28 August 2013
It is hard to describe the feeling of overwhelming joy and relief simultaneously mixing with utter fear and panic. That was the feeling when i got a text message from Mistress Scarlett Thorne at 7pm announcing Her imminent return to the Tranny Flat and demanding that it was ready for seven sessions the next day.
The joy and relief came from the fact that the text meant Mistress still wanted me to serve Her. i take the part of my mantra that service is "a privilege not a right" very seriously and have had plenty of experience of when i have no longer been required. More often than not after a serious misdemeanour by me but not always, sometimes Her life changes and i no longer have as much of a place in it.
i hadn't heard from Mistress for several weeks although She had kindly tweeted twice that She missed me. Even so the arrival of the text was an immense relief. i was so happy that Mistress still wanted me in Her life.
Unfortunately the scale of the task in cleaning the Tranny Flat and without a key scared me. i know how furious She would be if things were not ready for Her to start abusing slaves.
Fortunately, i was meeting Princess that night in the Tranny Flat with her lovely friend to go out to Tranny Shack. Getting changed was mixed with cleaning and then after a wonderful night of drinking and dancing there was more cleaning and tidying. Eventually i got home at 5am knowing Mistress could arrive any time and praying She would be happy.
Thursday 29 August 2013
Dragged myself out of bed and realised i had forgotten to give Mistress a wake-up cold call at 6am. First fail of the day and i find a message from Her simply saying: "Hopeless!"
Mistress Scarlett's train is late which has made Her cross but it is a great joy to see Her after almost three weeks. She takes out Her annoyance over the train on me by hitting me a few times, but isn't too displeased with state of the Tranny Flat.
As a special treat Mistress Scarlett, whose generosity is boundless, takes Princess and me for a drink at Ted's Place another tranny hangout. Get fondled by a creepy guy, which tends to be par for the course but i rarely object.
Friday 30 August 2013
Am absolutely shattered from lack of sleep. Do my best to serve Mistress Scarlett Thorne before She leaves back for Wales and i head home to pass out in bed.
Fortunately i find that sometimes if i can't think i work better because i simply react to what Mistress shouts to me.
Before W/we go O/our separate ways Mistress gives me some bonus time off the 3.5 days of punishment i am working off and a chastity release for working so hard. She is very generous but while i am delighted to get rewards it is the fact that they show She is happy with my service that makes me most happy. The week started with me wondering if i would be allowed back and ended with a reward.
Monday September 2 2013
Ordinary day. Get on with some cleaning to make sure the place is ready for MST's return. nothing much else to say. wear my current favourite dress, a short blue and white patterned one from H&M.
Tuesday September 3 2013
While MST is out i pop down to H&M to return a top neither of U/us liked. Unfortunately found out i had missed the return deadline. Really annoyed.
Have to spend far too much time at vanilla work. Boring. But do get to see Mistress in the evening, She even cooks me dinner. Of course i do the washing up.
Wednesday September 4 2013
Frustratingly heavy work load at my vanilla "silly part time job" as MST calls it. Not enough time in Tranny Flat. manage to get some chores done. Although Mistress is unhappy with my first attempt at the bathroom. She can find dirt where anywhere.
Thursday September 5 2013
W/we're all a bit worried about the money situation. Has been a very quiet summer. Summer holidays and school holidays in general are bad for sex workers but this summer has been one of the worst. Money for all of U/us is tight. Slaves need to start serving Mistress properly again She can't live on air She requires their tribute to continue living the lifestyle that allows them to enjoy their nasty little perversions.
i renew my whoring advertising and hope to get some more calls. Was quiet for me but i let my advertising run out over the summer.
Friday September 6 2013
Arrive at Tranny Flat to find one of THOSE lists from Mistress Scarlett Thorne which means a major reorganisation and clean-up is demanded. Top of the list is reorganising the Tranny Wardrobe of Doom (TWOD). It's a fearsome task, the TWOD is basically the engine of the TF. It has so many outfits and things in it that knowing where to begin is difficult.
Mistress goes out for most of the day so i tackle the list but carefully do almost everything else on it that is not the TWOD. That way Mistress is pleased with my progress although horrified to see a pile of clothes on the dungeon floor
Monday September 9
On my way to the TF i buy A LOT of clothes hangers - 60 for tops and dresses and 15 for skirts. Today is the big TWOD reorganisation day.
i spend hours and hours sorting out the TWOD. It has kind of metamorphosised into a monstrous chaos from me (mostly) putting things away where they will fit along with a failure to really look at how it is organised for ages. i move clothes out, i empty boxes, i find new homes for things, i put different things together, i put new labels on, i sort out the shoes and boots and i create a personal drawer for myself (a nice little treat Mistress has allowed me because it helps me get changed when She is having sessions).
At the end of it all i am very pleased and proud of my efforts. The wardrobe has far more space. Things are finally hung properly, it's easier to find things and generally it's better.
Just have to wait for Mistress Scarlett Thorne's judgement now. Certain feeling of trepidation. One concern is that there is STILL a shortage of hangers!
Tuesday September 10
MST returned from Wales last night and when i arrive She announces: "I am NOT happy with the TWOD!"
i almost cry.
Fortunately, She is happy with most of it, just wants two sections switched around. Which i do in a few minutes. i think Mistress loves making me panic and frightened, it also keeps me on my toes. Nothing can ever be "good enough" it must always be better.
Mistress also makes me empty my special drawer and put my things in one of the freed up plastic boxes to be hidden upstairs. Tells me i am in Her way every time i use the drawer.
Don't often write about clients but in the evening my slave J comes to see me. Begs me to let him f*** me. Tell him next time if he is a good boy. He is one of my favourites, really nice and a lovely cock. Even though I am his Mistress I love to suck him off as a treat for being obedient.
Wednesday September 11
Hate Wednesdays! Always bus at vanilla work. Manage to get some maid duties done in the morning.
MST shouts at me for not hanging Her bed sheets etc before. Asks why She bothers to employ me, She often asks that. Sometimes i point out She doesn't pay me anything so technically i am not employed. She always reminds me i am working off an every growing debt to Her worth billions now. Usually She hits me for being cheeky first.
Now i am in the mood for talking about clients. Had a new one today. Lovely gurl. Dressed her in pink and we f***ed and sucked and kissed and fondled. i do a lot of this sort of thing and i have become really good at bringing the fem out of guys who only dreamt they might be fem.
Btw i am only £100 an hour, which is really good for central London, so call me on 07532425141 for whatever fun you want.
Thursday September 12 2013
Today was about one of the bad side of clients in the sex trade. Had a new slave coming to see Me (have to refer to Myself in capitals when I am a Domme, life can be confusing). Anyway he mucked around, would not do what he was told and wouldn't come to the address. In the end I cancelled the session on MST's advice. W/we have to be very careful because there are plenty of nutters, violent types, idiots and thieves out their targeting working girls/ gurls and Dommes.
The guy was furious and really abusive which made me glad I pulled the plug on the session.
But I have one piece of advice when you want to see any Domme: DO EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE TOLD OR FUCK OFF!
If you follow basic instructions then an hour or more of mind blowing fun is guaranteed if you don't well you'll have to go and wank yourself off on your own.
Friday September 13 2013
Spend the morning maiding but head off early to get STD checks at the clinic. i am very careful when i session for my own sake and clients' too but if you're in the sex business you need to check regularly however careful you are and protect yourself too. Rather worryingly too i know somebody who may have got stabbed with a syringe at a club when i was outwith her so that's an extra reason to have a check up.
Monday September 16 2013
This is going to be a great week. Am on hols but can pretend i am at work so can maid and whore in TF all day without stress of my vanilla life encroaching.
MST is still away in Wales not back til late but there is plenty for me to do. i feel at such peace as i flit around the TF doing chores. It is wonderful having Mistress around but i am very happy on my own as well, being a gurl and knowing i am serving Her.
Have been thinking a lot about buying a latex dress, a red one for just £56 off ebay. Is very much aimed for sessions and me becoming a Tranny Domme. Finally do it today. Feel quite excited about it.
Tuesday September 17 2013
Arrive with more hangers. MST still not back in the morning but it allows me to put some final touches to reorganising the Tranny Wardrobe of Doom. Miss Mistress but She makes her presence felt with some texts to me.
Mistress Scarlett Thorne is the only person i know who can shout by text. As i read them i hear Her voice echoing in my ears. Slightly worried i may be in trouble, well i say "slightly", actually bloody terrified.
Fortunately, when MST arrives She appears to be in a good mood and W/we have a nice chat.
But there is still a money problem which is very worrying. Business is only just picking up again after a very quiet summer and both MST and i have had vanilla life issues which have got in the way of doing sessions.
As i have said before slaves think Mistresses (and whores for that matter!) are rolling in it because W/we charge £100 or £200 an hour. But the truth is that it is a very precarious financial existence and one thing goes wrong then it can cause real problems.
Wednesday September 18 2013
Things are looking bad. MST is talking about U/us quitting the TF so W/we can make more money elsewhere. It means renting another Domme's chambers which is more profitable but means W/we lose all O/our own space.
On a selfish note (and i keep this to myself) i fear it means the end of me serving as a maid. MST insists Her friend who She is considering renting off would be happy to have me, but in my heart i know that sissy maids have to earn the trust of Dommes over a long time and take A LOT of tolerating.
i say nothing because i don't want MST to be pressured to stay in the TF if other options are better for Her. i exist to server Her not the other way round.
Thursday September 19 2013
MST, Princess and i come up with the beginnings of a plan to make the TF work. i beg MST to allow me to pay a little of the rent to help out and She allows me to keep my earnings up to the same amount. i essentially i am giving my whoring earnings in advance and taking a risk on them. i am happy to do that and P agrees to help more with the rent.
Work hard and quietly as MST gets on with things. A lot of cleaning up in between messy sessions.
The atmosphere is a bit more relaxed when i leave.
Friday September 20 2013
Sad day. i am off on road trips for the next two weeks with vanilla work so this is my last proper day of maiding for at least a week.
MST and P are also going on an adventure for the weekend. i work hard to help MST during the day and She promises me tow good gurl butterfly stickers for my work that day and sorting out the TWOD. Feel overjoyed and surprised.
Before that i have to go and have my Hep C jab and get my STD results at the clinic. All clear, relieved but not surprised.
At the end of the day though when She is about to award me the butterflies MST also points out my fails and gives me 13 strokes of the cane (one for every foot sticker on my bucket). Should say MST has Her own way of counting beyond the mundane vanilla norms so 13 was nearer to 30. But She said i took my beating well and i was a good gurl then gave me my butterflies.
i am so lucky to service Mistress Scarlett Thorne.
Thursday September 26 2013
Been away since Sunday on first of two vanilla work road trips. Spend most of the day catching up with piles of cleaning in TF.
After that i go to my vanilla office to pick up my latex dress. Gives me great joy as i take it back to TF.
Have a special treat at the end. able to go out with Mistress, Princess and other friends to watch a debut performance. Am dressed as a man but underneath i am a very happy tranny.
One of those days where i am in awe of Mistress' abilities well beyond Dommeing and bdsm.
Friday September 27 2013
Had hoped for a full day serving MST but things did not work out. Vanilla family crisis meant i had to stay at home and cancel clients. So frustrating and annoying. One of many downsides in living a double life.
Thursday 3 October 2013
Been away on a vanilla work road trip of drinking, long hours and actual work since Sunday. Still feel appallingly hungover. Had hoped to return to real duties in TF today but Mistress Scarlett Thorne is really ill and asked me to stay away. More worried for Her but also sad i can't get back in a dress.
Friday 4 October 2013
MST is still ill. Take day off again. Sleep a lot and get some much needed family time.Having a double life does take a toll on my family time, it is a sacrifice i happily make but it is good to rebalance my life sometimes. Very worried about Mistress though.
Monday 7 October 2013
Nothing to say. Pissed off! Vanilla work nightmare can't get to Tranny Flat to maid. my luck is out!
Tuesday October 8 2013
Back at last! Oh my Goddess! i have not been in the Tranny Flat for more than a week. It is hard to describe the pain and longing i feel when i am not there. It is hard enough to get through the weekend.
Anyway the place is a total tip! mistress will probably beat me up when She reads this but She has had a massive reorganisation, there is piles of washing, washing up and the floors are filthy. There's also lots of things to put away and i don't know where they go any more.
Worked flat out for four hours, didn't even take a coffee break and i hardly feel i have made much of a dent. Hope Mistress appreciates cleaner floors, a cleaner kitchen and all the clean clothes. Suspect she won't, however, hard i work it is impossible to hit Her standards because they simply adjust upwards to make sure i continuously improve.
Didn't get a chance to see Mistress because She was out but hopefully will see Her tomorrow morning. Was also sadly too busy at vanilla work to go out with Her in the evening to an event she had to attend. Hate it when that happens, i so love getting to be in Her entourage.
Late breaking news! Mistress texted me to say She will discuss the state of the TF tomorrow but "feels a tranny shaming coming on." Gulp! is all i can say to that.
Wednesday October 9 2013
Fantastic to see Mistress Scarlett Thorne again! Feel very happy. Get a lot of work done but busy day at vanilla work means i can only serve Her in the morning. Have desperately missed being a gurl and serving Mistress properly.
Spent a lot of time on my knees scrubbing the floor in the Tranny Flat which is really my comfort place in the world, it's where i belong.
Mistress did threaten to sack me for almost ruining one of Her dresses and She was not impressed with my floor cleaning yesterday but somehow i survived. Maybe my long absence made Her more forgiving.
Thursday October 10 2013
Mistress is ill again. So i can't go to the Tranny Flat because She needs some peace and quiet. Very worried about Her because She can't shake off this nasty cold/ flu. Get on with some vanilla work and catch up with this diary but spend the day wishing i could be in a dress maiding.
Friday October 11 2013
MST still ill. i am worried for Her. Sometimes She seems so frail and vulnerable.
Get on with catching up my diary and praying MST will be better on Monday.
Guess illness is also producing money issues again. Slaves really ought to remember this about their Mistress and just help out more and not always expect a session for their tribute. If MST is forced to quit because of a period of illness then they will all lose out and partly because of their selfishness.
Life is full of worries.
Monday October 14 2013
Total utter disaster of the day. Total disaster.
Was very clumsy and quite selfish with my texts to Mistress in the morning and annoyed Her A LOT. Just made matters worse with my response. Actually swore by text. Never done that before and afterwards i was terrified about Her response. If i am lucky She'll kill me but let me back.
Was feeling in despair by the end of the day. Don't know when or if i'll be allowed back. Can't believe i have f***ed up again.
Tuesday October 15 2013
Felt very depressed in the morning. Wondered when and if Mistress would let me back. It could be a month or more again...
Omg! Joyful surprise in afternoon. Mistress texts me in the afternoon and allows me back. Much sooner than i had hoped even at my most optimistic. Obviously, i was very apologetic and genuinely so.
Day ended happily serving Scarlett Thorne in Tranny Flat again. Perhaps not surprisingly it involved another massive reorganisation of the TF. This one is going to take several days at least. It's good to be back
Wednesday October 16 2013
First proper day for while of working in the TF. Big clean in the morning. More reorganisation in the evening. This change around is quite a major project. Hopefully it will help the TF make more money.
Wednesday 28 August 2013
It is hard to describe the feeling of overwhelming joy and relief simultaneously mixing with utter fear and panic. That was the feeling when i got a text message from Mistress Scarlett Thorne at 7pm announcing Her imminent return to the Tranny Flat and demanding that it was ready for seven sessions the next day.
The joy and relief came from the fact that the text meant Mistress still wanted me to serve Her. i take the part of my mantra that service is "a privilege not a right" very seriously and have had plenty of experience of when i have no longer been required. More often than not after a serious misdemeanour by me but not always, sometimes Her life changes and i no longer have as much of a place in it.
i hadn't heard from Mistress for several weeks although She had kindly tweeted twice that She missed me. Even so the arrival of the text was an immense relief. i was so happy that Mistress still wanted me in Her life.
Unfortunately the scale of the task in cleaning the Tranny Flat and without a key scared me. i know how furious She would be if things were not ready for Her to start abusing slaves.
Fortunately, i was meeting Princess that night in the Tranny Flat with her lovely friend to go out to Tranny Shack. Getting changed was mixed with cleaning and then after a wonderful night of drinking and dancing there was more cleaning and tidying. Eventually i got home at 5am knowing Mistress could arrive any time and praying She would be happy.
Thursday 29 August 2013
Dragged myself out of bed and realised i had forgotten to give Mistress a wake-up cold call at 6am. First fail of the day and i find a message from Her simply saying: "Hopeless!"
Mistress Scarlett's train is late which has made Her cross but it is a great joy to see Her after almost three weeks. She takes out Her annoyance over the train on me by hitting me a few times, but isn't too displeased with state of the Tranny Flat.
As a special treat Mistress Scarlett, whose generosity is boundless, takes Princess and me for a drink at Ted's Place another tranny hangout. Get fondled by a creepy guy, which tends to be par for the course but i rarely object.
Friday 30 August 2013
Am absolutely shattered from lack of sleep. Do my best to serve Mistress Scarlett Thorne before She leaves back for Wales and i head home to pass out in bed.
Fortunately i find that sometimes if i can't think i work better because i simply react to what Mistress shouts to me.
Before W/we go O/our separate ways Mistress gives me some bonus time off the 3.5 days of punishment i am working off and a chastity release for working so hard. She is very generous but while i am delighted to get rewards it is the fact that they show She is happy with my service that makes me most happy. The week started with me wondering if i would be allowed back and ended with a reward.
Monday September 2 2013
Ordinary day. Get on with some cleaning to make sure the place is ready for MST's return. nothing much else to say. wear my current favourite dress, a short blue and white patterned one from H&M.
Tuesday September 3 2013
While MST is out i pop down to H&M to return a top neither of U/us liked. Unfortunately found out i had missed the return deadline. Really annoyed.
Have to spend far too much time at vanilla work. Boring. But do get to see Mistress in the evening, She even cooks me dinner. Of course i do the washing up.
Wednesday September 4 2013
Frustratingly heavy work load at my vanilla "silly part time job" as MST calls it. Not enough time in Tranny Flat. manage to get some chores done. Although Mistress is unhappy with my first attempt at the bathroom. She can find dirt where anywhere.
Thursday September 5 2013
W/we're all a bit worried about the money situation. Has been a very quiet summer. Summer holidays and school holidays in general are bad for sex workers but this summer has been one of the worst. Money for all of U/us is tight. Slaves need to start serving Mistress properly again She can't live on air She requires their tribute to continue living the lifestyle that allows them to enjoy their nasty little perversions.
i renew my whoring advertising and hope to get some more calls. Was quiet for me but i let my advertising run out over the summer.
Friday September 6 2013
Arrive at Tranny Flat to find one of THOSE lists from Mistress Scarlett Thorne which means a major reorganisation and clean-up is demanded. Top of the list is reorganising the Tranny Wardrobe of Doom (TWOD). It's a fearsome task, the TWOD is basically the engine of the TF. It has so many outfits and things in it that knowing where to begin is difficult.
Mistress goes out for most of the day so i tackle the list but carefully do almost everything else on it that is not the TWOD. That way Mistress is pleased with my progress although horrified to see a pile of clothes on the dungeon floor
Monday September 9
On my way to the TF i buy A LOT of clothes hangers - 60 for tops and dresses and 15 for skirts. Today is the big TWOD reorganisation day.
i spend hours and hours sorting out the TWOD. It has kind of metamorphosised into a monstrous chaos from me (mostly) putting things away where they will fit along with a failure to really look at how it is organised for ages. i move clothes out, i empty boxes, i find new homes for things, i put different things together, i put new labels on, i sort out the shoes and boots and i create a personal drawer for myself (a nice little treat Mistress has allowed me because it helps me get changed when She is having sessions).
At the end of it all i am very pleased and proud of my efforts. The wardrobe has far more space. Things are finally hung properly, it's easier to find things and generally it's better.
Just have to wait for Mistress Scarlett Thorne's judgement now. Certain feeling of trepidation. One concern is that there is STILL a shortage of hangers!
Tuesday September 10
MST returned from Wales last night and when i arrive She announces: "I am NOT happy with the TWOD!"
i almost cry.
Fortunately, She is happy with most of it, just wants two sections switched around. Which i do in a few minutes. i think Mistress loves making me panic and frightened, it also keeps me on my toes. Nothing can ever be "good enough" it must always be better.
Mistress also makes me empty my special drawer and put my things in one of the freed up plastic boxes to be hidden upstairs. Tells me i am in Her way every time i use the drawer.
Don't often write about clients but in the evening my slave J comes to see me. Begs me to let him f*** me. Tell him next time if he is a good boy. He is one of my favourites, really nice and a lovely cock. Even though I am his Mistress I love to suck him off as a treat for being obedient.
Wednesday September 11
Hate Wednesdays! Always bus at vanilla work. Manage to get some maid duties done in the morning.
MST shouts at me for not hanging Her bed sheets etc before. Asks why She bothers to employ me, She often asks that. Sometimes i point out She doesn't pay me anything so technically i am not employed. She always reminds me i am working off an every growing debt to Her worth billions now. Usually She hits me for being cheeky first.
Now i am in the mood for talking about clients. Had a new one today. Lovely gurl. Dressed her in pink and we f***ed and sucked and kissed and fondled. i do a lot of this sort of thing and i have become really good at bringing the fem out of guys who only dreamt they might be fem.
Btw i am only £100 an hour, which is really good for central London, so call me on 07532425141 for whatever fun you want.
Thursday September 12 2013
Today was about one of the bad side of clients in the sex trade. Had a new slave coming to see Me (have to refer to Myself in capitals when I am a Domme, life can be confusing). Anyway he mucked around, would not do what he was told and wouldn't come to the address. In the end I cancelled the session on MST's advice. W/we have to be very careful because there are plenty of nutters, violent types, idiots and thieves out their targeting working girls/ gurls and Dommes.
The guy was furious and really abusive which made me glad I pulled the plug on the session.
But I have one piece of advice when you want to see any Domme: DO EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE TOLD OR FUCK OFF!
If you follow basic instructions then an hour or more of mind blowing fun is guaranteed if you don't well you'll have to go and wank yourself off on your own.
Spend the morning maiding but head off early to get STD checks at the clinic. i am very careful when i session for my own sake and clients' too but if you're in the sex business you need to check regularly however careful you are and protect yourself too. Rather worryingly too i know somebody who may have got stabbed with a syringe at a club when i was outwith her so that's an extra reason to have a check up.
Monday September 16 2013
This is going to be a great week. Am on hols but can pretend i am at work so can maid and whore in TF all day without stress of my vanilla life encroaching.
MST is still away in Wales not back til late but there is plenty for me to do. i feel at such peace as i flit around the TF doing chores. It is wonderful having Mistress around but i am very happy on my own as well, being a gurl and knowing i am serving Her.
Have been thinking a lot about buying a latex dress, a red one for just £56 off ebay. Is very much aimed for sessions and me becoming a Tranny Domme. Finally do it today. Feel quite excited about it.
Tuesday September 17 2013
Arrive with more hangers. MST still not back in the morning but it allows me to put some final touches to reorganising the Tranny Wardrobe of Doom. Miss Mistress but She makes her presence felt with some texts to me.
Mistress Scarlett Thorne is the only person i know who can shout by text. As i read them i hear Her voice echoing in my ears. Slightly worried i may be in trouble, well i say "slightly", actually bloody terrified.
Fortunately, when MST arrives She appears to be in a good mood and W/we have a nice chat.
But there is still a money problem which is very worrying. Business is only just picking up again after a very quiet summer and both MST and i have had vanilla life issues which have got in the way of doing sessions.
As i have said before slaves think Mistresses (and whores for that matter!) are rolling in it because W/we charge £100 or £200 an hour. But the truth is that it is a very precarious financial existence and one thing goes wrong then it can cause real problems.
Wednesday September 18 2013
Things are looking bad. MST is talking about U/us quitting the TF so W/we can make more money elsewhere. It means renting another Domme's chambers which is more profitable but means W/we lose all O/our own space.
On a selfish note (and i keep this to myself) i fear it means the end of me serving as a maid. MST insists Her friend who She is considering renting off would be happy to have me, but in my heart i know that sissy maids have to earn the trust of Dommes over a long time and take A LOT of tolerating.
i say nothing because i don't want MST to be pressured to stay in the TF if other options are better for Her. i exist to server Her not the other way round.
Thursday September 19 2013
MST, Princess and i come up with the beginnings of a plan to make the TF work. i beg MST to allow me to pay a little of the rent to help out and She allows me to keep my earnings up to the same amount. i essentially i am giving my whoring earnings in advance and taking a risk on them. i am happy to do that and P agrees to help more with the rent.
Work hard and quietly as MST gets on with things. A lot of cleaning up in between messy sessions.
The atmosphere is a bit more relaxed when i leave.
Friday September 20 2013
Sad day. i am off on road trips for the next two weeks with vanilla work so this is my last proper day of maiding for at least a week.
MST and P are also going on an adventure for the weekend. i work hard to help MST during the day and She promises me tow good gurl butterfly stickers for my work that day and sorting out the TWOD. Feel overjoyed and surprised.
Before that i have to go and have my Hep C jab and get my STD results at the clinic. All clear, relieved but not surprised.
At the end of the day though when She is about to award me the butterflies MST also points out my fails and gives me 13 strokes of the cane (one for every foot sticker on my bucket). Should say MST has Her own way of counting beyond the mundane vanilla norms so 13 was nearer to 30. But She said i took my beating well and i was a good gurl then gave me my butterflies.
i am so lucky to service Mistress Scarlett Thorne.
Thursday September 26 2013
Been away since Sunday on first of two vanilla work road trips. Spend most of the day catching up with piles of cleaning in TF.
After that i go to my vanilla office to pick up my latex dress. Gives me great joy as i take it back to TF.
Have a special treat at the end. able to go out with Mistress, Princess and other friends to watch a debut performance. Am dressed as a man but underneath i am a very happy tranny.
One of those days where i am in awe of Mistress' abilities well beyond Dommeing and bdsm.
Friday September 27 2013
Had hoped for a full day serving MST but things did not work out. Vanilla family crisis meant i had to stay at home and cancel clients. So frustrating and annoying. One of many downsides in living a double life.
Thursday 3 October 2013
Been away on a vanilla work road trip of drinking, long hours and actual work since Sunday. Still feel appallingly hungover. Had hoped to return to real duties in TF today but Mistress Scarlett Thorne is really ill and asked me to stay away. More worried for Her but also sad i can't get back in a dress.
Friday 4 October 2013
MST is still ill. Take day off again. Sleep a lot and get some much needed family time.Having a double life does take a toll on my family time, it is a sacrifice i happily make but it is good to rebalance my life sometimes. Very worried about Mistress though.
Monday 7 October 2013
Nothing to say. Pissed off! Vanilla work nightmare can't get to Tranny Flat to maid. my luck is out!
Tuesday October 8 2013
Back at last! Oh my Goddess! i have not been in the Tranny Flat for more than a week. It is hard to describe the pain and longing i feel when i am not there. It is hard enough to get through the weekend.
Anyway the place is a total tip! mistress will probably beat me up when She reads this but She has had a massive reorganisation, there is piles of washing, washing up and the floors are filthy. There's also lots of things to put away and i don't know where they go any more.
Worked flat out for four hours, didn't even take a coffee break and i hardly feel i have made much of a dent. Hope Mistress appreciates cleaner floors, a cleaner kitchen and all the clean clothes. Suspect she won't, however, hard i work it is impossible to hit Her standards because they simply adjust upwards to make sure i continuously improve.
Didn't get a chance to see Mistress because She was out but hopefully will see Her tomorrow morning. Was also sadly too busy at vanilla work to go out with Her in the evening to an event she had to attend. Hate it when that happens, i so love getting to be in Her entourage.
Late breaking news! Mistress texted me to say She will discuss the state of the TF tomorrow but "feels a tranny shaming coming on." Gulp! is all i can say to that.
Wednesday October 9 2013
Fantastic to see Mistress Scarlett Thorne again! Feel very happy. Get a lot of work done but busy day at vanilla work means i can only serve Her in the morning. Have desperately missed being a gurl and serving Mistress properly.
Spent a lot of time on my knees scrubbing the floor in the Tranny Flat which is really my comfort place in the world, it's where i belong.
Mistress did threaten to sack me for almost ruining one of Her dresses and She was not impressed with my floor cleaning yesterday but somehow i survived. Maybe my long absence made Her more forgiving.
Thursday October 10 2013
Mistress is ill again. So i can't go to the Tranny Flat because She needs some peace and quiet. Very worried about Her because She can't shake off this nasty cold/ flu. Get on with some vanilla work and catch up with this diary but spend the day wishing i could be in a dress maiding.
Friday October 11 2013
MST still ill. i am worried for Her. Sometimes She seems so frail and vulnerable.
Get on with catching up my diary and praying MST will be better on Monday.
Guess illness is also producing money issues again. Slaves really ought to remember this about their Mistress and just help out more and not always expect a session for their tribute. If MST is forced to quit because of a period of illness then they will all lose out and partly because of their selfishness.
Life is full of worries.
Monday October 14 2013
Total utter disaster of the day. Total disaster.
Was very clumsy and quite selfish with my texts to Mistress in the morning and annoyed Her A LOT. Just made matters worse with my response. Actually swore by text. Never done that before and afterwards i was terrified about Her response. If i am lucky She'll kill me but let me back.
Was feeling in despair by the end of the day. Don't know when or if i'll be allowed back. Can't believe i have f***ed up again.
Tuesday October 15 2013
Felt very depressed in the morning. Wondered when and if Mistress would let me back. It could be a month or more again...
Omg! Joyful surprise in afternoon. Mistress texts me in the afternoon and allows me back. Much sooner than i had hoped even at my most optimistic. Obviously, i was very apologetic and genuinely so.
Day ended happily serving Scarlett Thorne in Tranny Flat again. Perhaps not surprisingly it involved another massive reorganisation of the TF. This one is going to take several days at least. It's good to be back
Wednesday October 16 2013
First proper day for while of working in the TF. Big clean in the morning. More reorganisation in the evening. This change around is quite a major project. Hopefully it will help the TF make more money.
Wednesday, 19 March 2014
Do i need to sign my life away to Mistress on the dotted line?
Easily the best present i received for Christmas (it feels a long time ago now) was a lovely surprise from Mistress Scarlett Thorne which was the complete 50 Shades of Grey trilogy that i have been slowly ploughing through, although the beautiful little list pad She also bought me to help remember my chores etc might have been even better...
Anyway, back to the point, 50 Shades of Grey, is despite some of the sneering criticisms, a thoroughly enjoyable read even if the Dom/sub relationship is the wrong way round. i have a philosophical and biological problem with the concept of male Dominants as someone who believes in Female superiority.
But one of the issues that came up early in the book is when the heroine, Anastasia Steele, is introduced to the Dominant billionaire Christian Grey's kinky world. What happens is he presents her with a contract. What's slightly concerning is that it is essentially a legal contract to protect the two of them like a pre-nup but swapping marriage for different kinds of pain and chains!
i have to say that i found the details of the contract quite a turn off but this is because it was clearly aimed at protecting Grey against breach of privacy and consequences of the D/s relationship. But it did get me wondering if having to sign a contract to "legally" give my life to Mistress Scarlett Thorne might actually be something worth doing, at least symbolically.
i was reminded of it again this last week when i helped Mistress in a session with another sissy slave. The sissy had presented Mistress Scarlett Thorne with a little book with a very touching dedication to Her and a contract at the end. A lot of effort had gone into it was a lovely tribute to Mistress Scarlett Thorne, so in no way do i want to demean the sissy's efforts or others who produce things like that for a Domme, because that sort of behaviour should be encouraged and i know it was greatly appreciated by Mistress Thorne. However, if the sissy produced the contract because she thought it was necessary i think i would have to say she doesn't yet fully understand the nature of a Domme's ownership over a slave.
Having said this i know some Dommes make their slaves sign contracts so i started to mull over what a contract between Mistress Scarlett Thorne and me might look like....
Contract of Servitude of DaniTallulah (nee...) to Mistress Scarlett Thorne of the Tranny Flat, London
1. DT will obey every instruction from MST when it is given without question.
2. DT will accept that she is always in the wrong, MST is always right.
3. DT will accept that she takes responsibility for anything that goes wrong in the Tranny Flat and anything else MST decides she should take responsibility for.
4. DT will accept any punishment from MST without question and submit to it at the moment MST wishes to inflict or for the period MST decides.
5. DT will accept that she is only permitted in the Tranny Flat with MST permission and/ or instruction.
6. DT will receive only the pay and remuneration decided by MST, waives her right to the minimum wage, and accepts that she may not get paid at all.
7. DT agrees to contribute to the costs of the Tranny Flat through her work as a whore on a cut decided at the time by MST which can be up to 100 per cent of the takings.
8. DT agrees to pay a debt of a sum of money, currently standing at more than £1 billion, to MST at an interest rate to be decided, modified and known by MST only.
9. DT's main duties are cleaning the Tranny Flat, whoring and whatever MST decides they need to be.
10. DT accepts that if she does not anticipate MST's wishes before they are given to her then she can be punished subject to what MST decides.
11. DT will help buy supplies for the Tranny Flat.
12. DT accepts that MST has no obligation to her in any respect and under any circumstances.
13. DT accepts that ALL secrets belong to MST.
14. DT accepts that all property and moneys she holds belongs to MST.
15. DT must never complain about anything ever.
16. DT agrees that all her work must be aimed at benefiting and promoting MST.
17. The copyright of anything produced by DT belongs to MST.
18 . DT accepts that MST holds the rights to her body, mind and soul.
19. DT's service can be terminated and restarted at any time without notice by MST.
20. DT always remembers the golden rule: "Serving MST is a privilege not a right and must WORK HARDER and SUFFER MORE to deserve it".
Frankly, i could have gone on, but those 20 points provide a fair summary of the conditions of my servitude to the top London Mistress Scarlett Thorne. And i can tell you they are more than worth it!
The trouble is that contracts often come with rights as well as duties which is odd for a slave. But mine would be:
1. MST accepts that while She can beat DT when She wants She cannot leave lasting marks.
2. MST agrees never to breach DT's privacy in her other life.
3. MST agrees not to reveal DT's identities without prior agreement.
Those essentially are my protections and rights if what we have were boiled down to terms and conditions. i could expect nothing more.
While it would symbolically have some value in signing my life away in a contract, a bit like having a collar, the duties, the terms i have outlined exist already in the lifestyle relationship i already enjoy serving Mistress Scarlett Thorne. So is there a point to a contract?
i cannot see one really standing up to scrutiny in a court of law. If hypothetically Mistress Scarlett Thorne caused me serious injury and somehow it ended up in court (it would not because i would never press charges but i know of slaves who have) then i cannot imagine there being a BDSM contract that would provide much of a defence.
If at some point i became free of my other life and was able to go full time as Mistress Scarlett Thorne's maid, PA, slave, sub or whatever (my dream) and live with Her, handing over all my property then i could see the need for a contract to protect me financially against it all going wrong and being thrown out on to the streets with nothing. Even then my faith in Her might make me think twice about a contract but that is the only circumstance i can imagine ever wanting one.
Even on a symbolic level i would question its value because it becomes THE point of reference. If you can tolerate me being pretentious for a moment i will explain why.
As somebody who has an interest in political theory, what we have here is the difference between the US written constitution and the British unwritten constitution. The American constitution was wonderful in its protection of basic rights such as the pursuit of happiness, but has no flexibility. So now it needs to ban guns the constitutional protection of the right to bear arms is a problem. The British system is not so great at protecting rights or setting anything in stone, but it has changed and adapted with time and circumstance and is extremely flexible.
The terms of my lifestyle arrangement with Mistress Scarlett Thorne have been just like the British unwritten constitution, they have grown and changed with time as W/we have got to know each other better and circumstances have changed. Sometimes those changes have been obvious, sometimes uncomfortable, sometimes through necessity, sometimes through Mistress' whims, sometimes though my failings.
After all if there had been a contract when Mistress Scarlett Thorne suddenly worked out i owed Her hundreds of millions of pounds it might have been a little awkward. But without a contract She was just able to impose Her will.
And here's the ridiculous scenario that may arise if there was a contract.
MST: dani why haven't You obeyed My instructions this morning? BAD MAID!
DT: Well Mistress, i would have obeyed them, but if You note clause 6 of the contract sub-section 1a part vii it says clearly that my duties are limited to certain areas which do not cover the instructions You gave me this morning...now Mistress i know You are angry and intend to beat me with that giant candle stick but if You note clause 7 sub-section 2d part xii of O/our contract You would realise that You can't do that because...
i think most of you realise that the thrashing i would receive after that would render a contract pretty worthless!
Essentially anything that gives the sub even a modicum of power in the relationship seems to be a waste of time. The point of being a sub is learning to give power away and the point of being a Domme is understanding how to use and balance power over somebody.
So even a symbolic contract is limiting, it prevents the Domme and sub expanding their horizons and trying new things. at worst it becomes the point of reference and a cause of argument which in the end i suspect would undermine not support a D/s relationship.
Frankly, the process of a Domme taking ownership over somebody and the slave allowing it to happen is a much more profound and altering experience of transformation than any piece of paper could possibly convey.
i hesitate to use religious analogies but when Jesus called his disciples and completely changed who they were he did not ask St Peter and the rest to sign on the dotted line...."all payments deferred until the afterlife..." The apostles needed faith and devotion which actually that is mostly what is needed by a sub who surrenders him or herself to a Dominant.
When it comes down to it Mistress Scarlett Thorne put me through a much more imaginative and interesting ritual to "sign my life away" when She baptised me in a bath of Her own piss and gave me a new name which began my new life. It was akin to a religious experience and i have been bound to Her ever since as a tranny and Her slave but it was only a beginning of a process which has no end. Mistress has changed me physically and psychologically, She has trained me and broken me, She has found new ways to control me and each step has seen my bond to Her deepen and strengthen. She has gradually taken ownership of my mind, body and soul and reshaped me to suit Her needs.
In the end what is essential is not signing on the dotted line, but complete mutual trust which no contract can be a substitute for or even create by itself. That has what has developed between Mistress Thorne and me and is the foundation for everything else. The hardest moments in the relationship have come when there has been a break down in trust.
Of course, having rubbished contracts, if the fabulous Mistress Scarlett Thorne makes me sign one they will actually be the best thing ever.
Anyway contract or no contract there is nothing more i want from life or even the afterlife than to be allowed to serve Mistress Scarlett Thorne.
If you have any questions about transgender issues or life a submissive email me at TrannyAgony@live.co.uk or Tweet me on @DaniTallulah.
Anyway, back to the point, 50 Shades of Grey, is despite some of the sneering criticisms, a thoroughly enjoyable read even if the Dom/sub relationship is the wrong way round. i have a philosophical and biological problem with the concept of male Dominants as someone who believes in Female superiority.
But one of the issues that came up early in the book is when the heroine, Anastasia Steele, is introduced to the Dominant billionaire Christian Grey's kinky world. What happens is he presents her with a contract. What's slightly concerning is that it is essentially a legal contract to protect the two of them like a pre-nup but swapping marriage for different kinds of pain and chains!
i have to say that i found the details of the contract quite a turn off but this is because it was clearly aimed at protecting Grey against breach of privacy and consequences of the D/s relationship. But it did get me wondering if having to sign a contract to "legally" give my life to Mistress Scarlett Thorne might actually be something worth doing, at least symbolically.
i was reminded of it again this last week when i helped Mistress in a session with another sissy slave. The sissy had presented Mistress Scarlett Thorne with a little book with a very touching dedication to Her and a contract at the end. A lot of effort had gone into it was a lovely tribute to Mistress Scarlett Thorne, so in no way do i want to demean the sissy's efforts or others who produce things like that for a Domme, because that sort of behaviour should be encouraged and i know it was greatly appreciated by Mistress Thorne. However, if the sissy produced the contract because she thought it was necessary i think i would have to say she doesn't yet fully understand the nature of a Domme's ownership over a slave.
Having said this i know some Dommes make their slaves sign contracts so i started to mull over what a contract between Mistress Scarlett Thorne and me might look like....
Contract of Servitude of DaniTallulah (nee...) to Mistress Scarlett Thorne of the Tranny Flat, London
1. DT will obey every instruction from MST when it is given without question.
2. DT will accept that she is always in the wrong, MST is always right.
3. DT will accept that she takes responsibility for anything that goes wrong in the Tranny Flat and anything else MST decides she should take responsibility for.
4. DT will accept any punishment from MST without question and submit to it at the moment MST wishes to inflict or for the period MST decides.
5. DT will accept that she is only permitted in the Tranny Flat with MST permission and/ or instruction.
6. DT will receive only the pay and remuneration decided by MST, waives her right to the minimum wage, and accepts that she may not get paid at all.
7. DT agrees to contribute to the costs of the Tranny Flat through her work as a whore on a cut decided at the time by MST which can be up to 100 per cent of the takings.
8. DT agrees to pay a debt of a sum of money, currently standing at more than £1 billion, to MST at an interest rate to be decided, modified and known by MST only.
9. DT's main duties are cleaning the Tranny Flat, whoring and whatever MST decides they need to be.
10. DT accepts that if she does not anticipate MST's wishes before they are given to her then she can be punished subject to what MST decides.
11. DT will help buy supplies for the Tranny Flat.
12. DT accepts that MST has no obligation to her in any respect and under any circumstances.
13. DT accepts that ALL secrets belong to MST.
14. DT accepts that all property and moneys she holds belongs to MST.
15. DT must never complain about anything ever.
16. DT agrees that all her work must be aimed at benefiting and promoting MST.
17. The copyright of anything produced by DT belongs to MST.
18 . DT accepts that MST holds the rights to her body, mind and soul.
19. DT's service can be terminated and restarted at any time without notice by MST.
20. DT always remembers the golden rule: "Serving MST is a privilege not a right and must WORK HARDER and SUFFER MORE to deserve it".
Frankly, i could have gone on, but those 20 points provide a fair summary of the conditions of my servitude to the top London Mistress Scarlett Thorne. And i can tell you they are more than worth it!
The trouble is that contracts often come with rights as well as duties which is odd for a slave. But mine would be:
1. MST accepts that while She can beat DT when She wants She cannot leave lasting marks.
2. MST agrees never to breach DT's privacy in her other life.
3. MST agrees not to reveal DT's identities without prior agreement.
Those essentially are my protections and rights if what we have were boiled down to terms and conditions. i could expect nothing more.
While it would symbolically have some value in signing my life away in a contract, a bit like having a collar, the duties, the terms i have outlined exist already in the lifestyle relationship i already enjoy serving Mistress Scarlett Thorne. So is there a point to a contract?
i cannot see one really standing up to scrutiny in a court of law. If hypothetically Mistress Scarlett Thorne caused me serious injury and somehow it ended up in court (it would not because i would never press charges but i know of slaves who have) then i cannot imagine there being a BDSM contract that would provide much of a defence.
If at some point i became free of my other life and was able to go full time as Mistress Scarlett Thorne's maid, PA, slave, sub or whatever (my dream) and live with Her, handing over all my property then i could see the need for a contract to protect me financially against it all going wrong and being thrown out on to the streets with nothing. Even then my faith in Her might make me think twice about a contract but that is the only circumstance i can imagine ever wanting one.
Even on a symbolic level i would question its value because it becomes THE point of reference. If you can tolerate me being pretentious for a moment i will explain why.
As somebody who has an interest in political theory, what we have here is the difference between the US written constitution and the British unwritten constitution. The American constitution was wonderful in its protection of basic rights such as the pursuit of happiness, but has no flexibility. So now it needs to ban guns the constitutional protection of the right to bear arms is a problem. The British system is not so great at protecting rights or setting anything in stone, but it has changed and adapted with time and circumstance and is extremely flexible.
The terms of my lifestyle arrangement with Mistress Scarlett Thorne have been just like the British unwritten constitution, they have grown and changed with time as W/we have got to know each other better and circumstances have changed. Sometimes those changes have been obvious, sometimes uncomfortable, sometimes through necessity, sometimes through Mistress' whims, sometimes though my failings.
After all if there had been a contract when Mistress Scarlett Thorne suddenly worked out i owed Her hundreds of millions of pounds it might have been a little awkward. But without a contract She was just able to impose Her will.
And here's the ridiculous scenario that may arise if there was a contract.
MST: dani why haven't You obeyed My instructions this morning? BAD MAID!
DT: Well Mistress, i would have obeyed them, but if You note clause 6 of the contract sub-section 1a part vii it says clearly that my duties are limited to certain areas which do not cover the instructions You gave me this morning...now Mistress i know You are angry and intend to beat me with that giant candle stick but if You note clause 7 sub-section 2d part xii of O/our contract You would realise that You can't do that because...
i think most of you realise that the thrashing i would receive after that would render a contract pretty worthless!
Essentially anything that gives the sub even a modicum of power in the relationship seems to be a waste of time. The point of being a sub is learning to give power away and the point of being a Domme is understanding how to use and balance power over somebody.
So even a symbolic contract is limiting, it prevents the Domme and sub expanding their horizons and trying new things. at worst it becomes the point of reference and a cause of argument which in the end i suspect would undermine not support a D/s relationship.
Frankly, the process of a Domme taking ownership over somebody and the slave allowing it to happen is a much more profound and altering experience of transformation than any piece of paper could possibly convey.
i hesitate to use religious analogies but when Jesus called his disciples and completely changed who they were he did not ask St Peter and the rest to sign on the dotted line...."all payments deferred until the afterlife..." The apostles needed faith and devotion which actually that is mostly what is needed by a sub who surrenders him or herself to a Dominant.
When it comes down to it Mistress Scarlett Thorne put me through a much more imaginative and interesting ritual to "sign my life away" when She baptised me in a bath of Her own piss and gave me a new name which began my new life. It was akin to a religious experience and i have been bound to Her ever since as a tranny and Her slave but it was only a beginning of a process which has no end. Mistress has changed me physically and psychologically, She has trained me and broken me, She has found new ways to control me and each step has seen my bond to Her deepen and strengthen. She has gradually taken ownership of my mind, body and soul and reshaped me to suit Her needs.
In the end what is essential is not signing on the dotted line, but complete mutual trust which no contract can be a substitute for or even create by itself. That has what has developed between Mistress Thorne and me and is the foundation for everything else. The hardest moments in the relationship have come when there has been a break down in trust.
Of course, having rubbished contracts, if the fabulous Mistress Scarlett Thorne makes me sign one they will actually be the best thing ever.
Anyway contract or no contract there is nothing more i want from life or even the afterlife than to be allowed to serve Mistress Scarlett Thorne.
If you have any questions about transgender issues or life a submissive email me at TrannyAgony@live.co.uk or Tweet me on @DaniTallulah.
Friday, 1 November 2013
10 conversation lines to avoid if you want to pull a T-girl
When i was a man i was utterly rubbish at chat up lines. This may be because i was never a proper man but a girl stuck in a boy's body, however, since i finally embraced my true female nature i have had to endure the appalling variety of chat up lines men bombard us with and i am beginning to think that it may just be a general male failing.
i know there are plenty of guys out there who went to get into a T-girl's pants so here are some helpful tips in what conversation lines to avoid if you want to pull by the end of the night. These generally are true for girls who were lucky enough to be born in female bodies too, but even more so for T-girls because we tend to focus even more on the feminine.
1. Quoting Monty Python
Why do guys think this is the ultimate chat up line? i know you guys thinks it's the funniest thing ever and that woman played by Gwyneth Paltrow in Sliding Doors is supposedly wooed by some Python humour but you may as well pour a bucket of cold sick over a gurl because that's what quoting Python does to your chances of getting a shag.
2. Discussing football teams, tactics or whatever
Save it for the guys in the pub they appreciate other bores. The only good thing about sports stars is how good looking some are and who has been involved in the latest naughty gossip.
3. Military mattersSoldiers are fit and probably better looking than you. That's all the information we need.4. Talk about your job.
Even if you think it is fascinating it is not. The exception to the rule is if you are a plastic surgeon offering a free boob job, a make-up artist, masseur, fitness instructor, model agent, involved in anyway in fashion or a jeweller ie useful jobs. And if you're a pimp i've already got one so f*** off!
5. Boasting about how many pints you can down in one go.
Sorry all it means is that you end up limp and needing a piss all the time. Not worth opening our legs for.
6. Pretending you have an in depth knowledge of the stars.
I have yet to meet a man who can go beyond the Plough and it's the wrong stars anyway. We gurls may want to talk about celeb stars or even astrology stars which most guys don't have a clue about.
7. Science fiction
Yawn! Still the wrong bloody stars.
8. Fantasy
The only Lord of the Rings we are interested in is some rich bloke giving us expensive jewellery.
9. How high you can score on computer games
As a general rule is the higher you computer score the smaller your...
10. Cars
Omg! Is it pretty looking? Does it have a nice colour? Anything beyond that is really very unimportant. Oh yes the most important question: Is there enough room in the back seat or do we need to find a hotel?
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