Living by Scarlett Time

For those of you who have had even the briefest contact with the top London Mistress Scarlett Thorne the title of this particular post will be all too familiar to you. Those of us who serve Her in our daily lives or often at least have virtually given up on concepts like ordinary time zones when we enter Mistress Scarlett Thorne's world.

For the uninitiated allow me to explain. Scarlett Time is meaner in its cruelty than the Greenwich meridian, but far more generous in its understanding of length of concepts such as seconds, minutes and hours. However, for those who like to to live life by their watch it is confusing.

Mistress Scarlett Thorne does not wear a watch Her body clock accurately tells Her when the right time is. This often means that sessions appear to be delayed by an hour or two but then go on far longer than the hour booked. i say 'appear' because when the sessions start is the right time because it is Scarlett Time.

It is a mistake to get frustrated over Scarlett Time and slaves who do get upset about it don't last long, while those who learn to live by Scarlett Time enjoy the privileges which go with serving the most beautiful and powerful Dominatrix in London with all the experience She has acquired in a lifetime of dominating men.

But there is a wider point to this blog after some issues raised by one or two subs with me. Scarlett Time is one of the whims of Mistress Scarlett Thorne, it is a sign of Her control of everything around Her and those who come into contact with Her. If you are serious about serving any Domme in sessions or in lifestyle then learning about Her whims and desires is essential for you to be a successful slave, sub and, especially, maid.

If you have any questions about life as a sub or/ and tranny email me at TrannyAgony@live.co.uk or Tweet me on @DaniTallulah.

The truth about forced feminisation

Here's a question for some of you subs out there. When you think of "forced feminisation" do you think of being made to wear something like this?

Utterly hideous, isn't it? i think it is a size 20 bright pink pvc frilly dress. Now i am somebody, as my regular readers know, who spends as much time as i can in a dress etc and frankly i would be completely humiliated wearing something like that.

Now some of my friends may point out that i am not one of those gurls who likes to be a frilly sissy but for me what that dress represents is a false concept of forced feminisation. It plays on the idea that the man should look ridiculous and be totally humiliated when dressed as a woman. It rejects the inner woman within most men and propagates the idea that the sexes don't cross over.

Items like that are produced not to feminise but actually to defeminise to make the so called man feel like less of a woman than he should. It is a cliché stocked by most Dommes in Their dungeons simply to play on what their tribute paying slaves expect not about a true process of subjugation and feminisation.

Now i don't mean to demean those whose fantasy is to wear something like this. i have enjoyed humiliation and i understand the urge to want to be humiliated, but this does not mean it equates to actual feminisation.

There are also some fabulous frilly dresses out there which look so much better than that as worn by my best tranny friend @PrincessTST.

When i fantasised about being feminised before i was lucky enough to meet Mistress Scarlett Thorne it was far more looking something like this that i wanted to look like and wear:

i am sure that some of You will tell me this is just another cliché. They may claim it is the slutty, minimalist version of the hideous frilly monstrosity i showed you earlier. Well it maybe but i would say that it is still a step towards genuine feminisation and an expression of feminine sexuality.

But this is all a distraction. So what then is the truth of forced feminisation?

This is something that i now have a lot of experience in having been "forced" to accept my identity as a woman rather than a man by Scarlett Thorne and watched others follow a similar path at different stages.

What i believe is that all men have the potential to become a woman. After all we all have female physical characteristics, if you doubt that play with your nipples for a moment. To widely different degrees we also are born with a psychological and spiritual woman inside us which with nurturing can become your dominant feature, as it has become with me.

For many in the transsexual community there is no need to force their feminisation. The female identity is so strong and that they are able to embrace it themselves without meeting a Mistress. While my dear friend @maid_felicity is very well known in the BDSM world, he path to becoming a gurl was one which needed know forcing just experimentation.

But for different reasons most men will deny or suppress their female side, even if it is overwhelmingly powerful within them. This was certainly true of me until i went to see Scarlett Thorne almost three years ago. i went to see Mistress Thorne not because i wanted to be a woman but because i wanted to erxperiment in BDSM. As i remember it i had a toilet slave fantasy at the time, which gave me the original name wetslave.

What happened fairly rapidly was a process of forced feminisation, something that Mistress Thorne excells and delights in. i was dressed in that first session and finger f***ed, but from there a long process of replacing what was a man with what is now a woman.

This process involved learning about my female identity, getting new skills such as using make up, changing my body language, getting rid of hair, changing my thought processes and interests, and all sorts of other things. All of this was done through instruction but would never have happened had i not been pushed into it by Scarlett Thorne.

True to say i have adopted some stereotypes. i am a maid for Scarlett Thorne and i work as a whore. However, i have also got to a position where i am happy to go out as a woman and look like a normal woman in the street.

So this i believe is the truth about forced feminisation. It is a skilled process in a Domme/ sub relationship not only about humiliation but about turning what was a man into a woman by developing on the foundations which are naturally there already. It is less about pure humiliation and more about changing your identity and reshaping you. If done properly, as Scarlett Thorne has done with me, it will totally alter you forever.

While i realise most people do not want to or haver the time or opportunity to live the lifestyle i have there is no reason why this cannot be true for forced feminisation in sessions only. If you have had a really good session where you have been dressed and treated like a woman, then you should walk away feeling that you were one for that hour or two.

Anyway here is a picture of me working as a gurl and if you want a session with me do feel free to call 07532425141 or check out my website www.dani-t-girl.co.uk.

And here is a quick snap of me by a friend looking a little more normal trying out a ball gown.

If you have any issues or concerns about being a tranny or sub then email me at trannyagony@live.co.uk or tweet me on @DaniTallulah.

A tranny beginners guide to make-up in 10 steps

As important as clothes, demeanour, behaviour, hair pieces and shaving or waxing are for me the great moment of transformation is reached when you paint your face with make up. When i have got my face on i feel completed as a girl and ready to face the world, literally, as a proud, confident woman.


But i know from personal experience that for many TV girls starting out make up is a little daunting to say the least. It feels like one of those things you should know what to do but in reality it is a lot more complicated than it seems and very easy to get wrong. And when it goes wrong it looks dreadful and worst of all can really make you look like a clown and a man - yuk!

In fact, just to show that even with a little experience a gurl can get it wrong, only the other day i realised i was using the wrong colour foundation and it was far too dark and orangey for my skin tone. The discovery was a result of me waxing my chest and being able to wear lower cut dresses.

Admittedly, make-up is something i will never stop learning and there are many tricks of the trade i am still finding out so anybody who has discovered any clever things to do please leave a comment below.

But here is a 10-step beginners guide to make-up along with sonme of the top tips i have picked up from the my mentor and Mistress Scarlett Thorne and tranny friends such as @MaidFelicity and @MsEmilyAnarchy:

1. Make sure you have shaved your face properly.
This may sound incredibly obvious but you would be surprised how many gurls simply forget, especially later in the day when the afternoon shadow has appeared. Always worth running a razer over your face before you start.

Top tip: Foundation usually hides stubborn stubble but if it is really dark then put concealer on the spots after you have applied foundation.

2. Clean and moisturise your face
As part of the preparation it is worth washing your face, getting rid of dirt and sweat and also applying moisturiser because make-up can dry out your face.

Top tip: Try E45 moisturiser because it has no scent.

3. Cover your face in foundation
Foundation is exactly what it says, it is the platform on which your transformation is built and the rest of the make-up is put on. When you apply it make sure it is spread evenly across your face, chin and upper neck and blended in carefully leaving no uncovered spots. Do this in clear light and in front of a mirror.
To apply is squeeze it on to the back of your hand then put blobs on your chin, two cheeks, forehead and nose and then spread it.

Top tip: Be careful when you choose foundation. Make sure it is slightly paler than the colour and tone of your skin.

Another top tip: Use a magnifying mirror to double check the results. Keep one handy in your make-up bag.

4. Powder your face
You need to do this to thoroughly across all the foundation, preferably with a pale powder and just enough to hold the foundation in place. It is worth repowdering your face afterwards when you go out at night.

Top tip: You can use a special pad but it is best to do this stage with a powder brush.

5. Apply blusher
This is the point where you start putting colour on your face. Blushers come in all sorts of colours but i prefer tanned or pinky looks. Use a pad to apply blusher and put it in small amount starting on your cheeks and applying it in circular motions.

Top tip: Beware not to put on too much, especially during the day. It can make you look like a clown. If you are going out for the night or whoring then put on  a lot more but make sure it blends in properly.

6. Apply eye shadow
Choose a colour which matches what you are wearing. Close your eyes one at a time and make sure your eye lid is not wrinkled. Then apply it carefully and evenly.

Top tip: Like blusher do not over do it during the day to avoid the clown look. A lot of make up works when you are going out or on the pull.

7. Next the eye liner
Make sure the eye liner pencil is sharp. Start on the inside corner of your eye and follow the line of the edge of your lower eye lid which you should be holding down for a clear view.

Top tip: You can get many colours but generally use black liner.

Another top tip: After you have finished with eye liner and eye shadow then it is better to smudge them carefully at the outside corners of your eyes.

8. Put on mascara
It took me time to start using mascara but i wish i had used it earlier. This is the special make-up to make your eye lashes stand out and look more feminine. Again with a steady hand lightly brush your eye lashes. Beware of blobs dropping on to your face or lower eyelid.

Top tip: Don't bother with mascara primer. It is a waste of money and actually weighs down your lids.

9. And finally the lipstick
The main issue with lipstick is to avoid using too much and letting it smudge across your face. Find a colour and tone which fits what you are wearing and the rest of your make-up. Carefully put it on your lips and rub them lightly together. Follow the line of your lips and you can go slightly over but make sure you keep the shape of your mouth. Allow it to dry before drinking.

Top tip: Use lipstick liner of the same colour first to draw the shape and then fill in with the lipstick.

Another top tip: Use a straw when drinking to avoid smudges.

10. Finishing off
Check your face carefully in the mirror and use cotton buds to remove blemishes or smudges.

Top tip: Good make up is generally expensive, but a good place to start with reasonably priced make-up is Collection 2000 in Boots, particularly for foundation.

Another top tip: Carry a small make-up mirror, powder, blusher and make-up in your handbag to replenish your make-up when you go out.



The good news is that make-up lessons (from beginners to advanced) are among the exciting services Scarlett Thorne and i are offering in our special makeover sessions available to would be and already practising gurls from £120 an hour . Just call or text Mistress Scarlett Thorne on 07910476639 or me on 07532425141.

If you have any questions about being a tranny gurl or a sub then contact me at trannyagony@live.co.uk or on Twitter on @DaniTallulah.

The tranny guide to drinking

One of the most important lessons Mistress Scarlett Thorne has drummed into me - usually with the flat of Her hand, sometimes a cane or generally whatever implement is lying around - is that the process of feminisation is as much about how you act and behave as what you wear. And this is particularly true when it comes to the old adage "you are what you eat" or for the purposes of this blog "you are what you drink".

Scarlett Thorne has very strong opinions about what Her tranny gurls should drink not only when they are out with Her and on show as such, but also in their private lives. While those of us who live double lives, for example, cannot go around in girly clothes and make-up all the time we can change other aspects of our behaviour patterns to help maintain our feminine identity. Focussing on what you drink and how you drink is an easy way to remain feminine in your vanilla world. 

Of course, a bit like chastity, there is also an important element of Mistress extending Her control into every aspect of my life which is an important part of a sub identity quite aside from the feminisation process. But Scarlett Thorne's approach is usually also an educational one so She tends to give these instructions to help improve Her slaves, and in the case of trannies make them more feminine and crucially think more like a girl.

Changing your behaviour patterns also changes the way you think and after a period of learning it becomes automatic which means your behaviour patterns are fixed.

Before i get on to what a gurl should or shouldn't drink it's also perhaps worth dealing with some of that nasty masculine behaviour that you often see women also trying to use which for an inspiring gurl is simply unacceptable!

Remember the art of drinking in a bar for a gurl is to look attractive so to begin with here are 10 DOs and DON'Ts:

DO  - Act demurely at the bar, get attention by fluttering your eyelids
DON'T - Lean forward at the bar waving cash


DO - Get a man to buy the drinks whenever possible
DON'T - Go and buy drinks for a man


DO - Use nothing bigger than a half pint size glass, preferably a wine or cocktail glass
DON'T - Use pint glasses or tankards or bottle


DO - Sip your drink sweetly or even better use a straw to avoid smudging your lipstick
DON'T - Gulp it down in one or quickly


DO - Allow small favours for the purchase of a drink ie a dance
DON'T - Take any notice of a guy who refuses to buy you a drink


DO - Hold your drink like a girl with your little finger sticking out
DON'T - Grasp your drink like your are creating a fist


DO - Sit up straight with your chest out when drinking
DON'T - Slouch with hunched shoulders


DO - Keep lipstick and cotton buds handy to sort out smudges from drinking
DON'T - Forget these items if you want to remain pretty


DO - Gossip, flirt, have girly chat while having a drink
DON'T - Make loud jokes or discuss football or any other sport


DO - Say: "OH! I like this it's pink and sparkly"
DON'T - Say: "Well this is an excellent wine because it comes from the...." (yawn! male bore)


So now we know how gurls should drink it's time to look at what beverages (including the word beverage) they should avoid. Here are my top 5 inappropriate drinks:

1. Beer - The ultimate man's drink, completely unfeminine and unacceptable except of the light variety such as Corona which comes with fruit. Particualrly AVOID real ales!


2. Whisky - Even worse than beer. Whisky is the male bore's favourite tipple. Those who drink it will numb your mind for hours on different types and peats (YAWN!). Not for a gurl!


3. Red wine - Is very masculine and usually the type of drink chosen by men who think they know something about alcohol.


4. Cider - Is like beer for men who want to get drunk even more quickly. Just generally avoid things that need to be drunk from big glasses or bottles.


5. Rum - This is ok if it is part of a cocktail but in no other circumstances. It is also a vile drink.


But just in case you think i'm ruining all your fun, these five drinks are definitely appropriate for any girl heading for good night out:

1. Vodka and mixer - This is the staple night out drink of any self respecting girl. Preferably vodka and lemonade but coke or maybe red bull will do. It is essentially a soft drink with an alcoholic kick. Light and sparkly and perfect to get you in the mood for dancing or more interesting fun. REMEMBER always have diet or zero sugar lemonade or coke to keep your figure trim.


2. White wine - People who think they know about wine sneer at white wine, which is why it is ideal. Often at tedious functions you only have a choice of red or white wine. You should know nothing about wine but white wine is easy to drink and gives a proper girly image. Rose is ok but ideally when it is sparkly. Pink champagne is a treat.


3. Cocktails - Preferably bought for you by a guy. Ideally it should be creamy or bought for its colour. Never buy it for a funny name let the guy get worked up about blowjobs and sex on the beach...if he buys you enough cocktails he might just get one of those!


4. Gin and tonic - If you really have to look sophisticated then G&T is acceptable.


5. Cum - Well a gurl should always hope to pull and you don't know how the night will end up. But, as a whore, my advice is only swallow if he pays extra.


Those who know me well will be asking: "What about Scarlettpisstini?" Of course, Scarlett Thorne's drink in watersports is the nectar of the Goddess as i'm sure slaves feel is true of their Mistress's champagne too. It's just i'm not sure a Mistress would be too impressed if you asked Her for it if you were lucky enough to be with Her in a bar although i guess if She wanted a companion to the toilet You might get lucky...

By the way anybody with suggestions on appropriate or inappropriate drinks please put them in the comments section below.

Anybody wanting advice on being a tranny or a sub email me on trannyagony@live.co.uk or tweet me on @DaniTallulah.

How to get to live with a Dominatrix (for a few days anyway)

It is the ultimate fantasy. From the wake up call of a sharp kick in the ribs and the shout "make me coffee slave!", through the joy of every cherished moment of serving Mistress, the hours of kink, chores, more kink and, of course, punishment, to the moment you pass out from exhaustion in the early hours of the morning, the prospect of being able to live even briefly the life of a 24/7 slave is the dream of all those who have ever wanted to belong to a Domme.

For a day or few days even the stresses and strains of your vanilla life are forgotten and all you need to worry about are the needs and whims of Mistress and what She might do to you or demand of you next. Not just the ultimate fantasy but complete escapism.

It's certainly something i dreamed and fantasised of pretty much from the age of 11 and never thought would happen and then suddenly through the grace of the Goddess, or rather Scarlett Thorne, it actually did.

But what we are talking about here is one of the greatest privileges any slave - tranny or otherwise - can experience in being allowed to stay overnight or for several days with the Mistress they serve. When a Domme allows a sub to do this She is allowing them into a bit of Her private world and putting the slave's service to Her on a new level altogether.

But the chances of it happening seem so distant for many it is something i have been asked by quite a few people how it is possible to achieve.

There are two paths to being allowed to stay with a Mistress - the easiest way with a pro-Domme is through hard cash or very special gifts (see section 2) and the hardest by far is through servitude and total devotion, which worked for me.

There is the third route of an actual romantic relationship but that is the subject of another blog post.

Instead i will first outline the way i ended up being a regular overnight guest of Mistress Scarlett Thorne at the Tranny Flat.

Route 1: Servitude and devotion
This section is the lifestyle slave route to staying with a Domme. For those who want to find out how to get a lifestyle arrangement click here but also read on.

First, it should be noted that to be allowed to live with the Mistress for a few days or more or even a night She needs to know you very well and feel comfortable and safe with you as well as actually enjoy your company. In other words this is not just about sessions as i will touch on in a later point. It also means you have had to have built up a relationship with Her over a very long period of time.

i know most Mistresses won't even consider an overnight session for someone until they have served Her in ordinary sessions several times. To be allowed to stay longer requires a relationship of a few years. In my case that was much less BUT i spend most working days maiding or serving for Scarlett Thorne on average more than five hours a day in some way or other, so we have built up O/our relationship faster than if i was only sessioning or serving a few hours a week. i have in effect had the equivalent of maybe 20 years worth of many slaves' contact with their Mistress.

At this point i should emphasize that i have also become best friends with Scarlett Thorne, although it is a strange sort of unequal friendship between a Mistress and slave but still a very good and meaningful one. O/our personalities are also well matched - She is very good at giving orders and i love trying to follow them, but W/we also have similar interests beyond just bdsm.

i remember the first time She allowed me to stay overnight was partly because She said She quite liked my company which is why i got it at a discounted price. But it is important too for Her that She knows She can trust me implicitly, that i won't invade Her private life and will not take advantage of Her generosity. That first stay was very much a test of that.

It also helps a lot that for Mistress (and me) i am a girl not a man. As such W/we have the friendship of two females - not a lesbian one i hasten to add - but my transformation has made it much easier for me to enjoy this sort of privilege. It is far harder for a male slave to have the same honour.

As i said She also knows that i will work as Her maid or whatever She requires from before She gets up to after She has gone to bed. There was one time i stayed with Her that i forgot to eat for two days because i was working so hard on tasks for Her. Slightly worryingly Mistress did't notice either but W/we were having the most fabulous time. A maid cannot live by by vodka and coffee alone but she can live by the words of Her Mistress.

The word "slaving" does not get anywhere near the level of work Scarlett Thorne expects of me but hard work - and it is the almost daily hard work - in addition to working a normal full time job (my silly part time job as Mistress puts it) which as i have mentioned in previous blogs allows me these opportunities. As i've said before i have a key to the Tranny Flat not so i can go and enjoy myself but because i am expected to undertake the same level of hard work whether Mistress is staying at the Tranny Flat or is away. Woe betide me if She comes back to an even slightly dirty or messy dungeon and flat.

So to get to a point where i am a welcome guest i have had to completely devote myself to serving Scarlett Thorne, something i happen to love doing and be proud of but not an easy thing to do especially when you have a full other life. But generally this is typical of slave relationships with serious Dommes, although most of them do not have complicated other vanilla lives.

These days as well i also pay rent towards the TrannyFlat through my whoring, which is another reason for me to be allowed to stay and see clients, but that is a pretty unusual situation and one i would not necessarily recommend to others unless you really want to do it, even though i adore my escort work. But this does bring us on neatly to the next and most common way of getting to stay with Mistress.

Route 2: Cash and gifts
As i have said in other blogs, but it bears repeating, Mistresses do not do what they do for charitable reasons. It is how they make their living and pay for their lifestyle. They may enjoy it but it has to pay so you have to pay. And this sort of privilege will cost you one way or another.

Just to put this in context, an overnight stay with me as a whore will cost at least £800 but probably nearer £1,200 if it is at the TrannyFlat. For a skilled Dominatrix, unless She is being very generous and likes you a lot, an overnight stay will be anything between £1,000 and £2,000. So if you are planning on staying a few days you will need to expect to dig deep into your wallet.

OK admittedly i was lucky enough to not have to pay much to stay with Scarlett Thorne but it still costs. In the early days i used to offer to pay for hotels if W/we went away and i still buy expensive drinks and meals and take Her to expensive clubs. i also buy in most of the TrannyFlat supplies when i am working there and i try to regularly bring Her a gift of perfume or something special.

i know one slave was allowed to stay three days after he bought Her a car. At least one other brought Her jewellery worth around £2,000. Other slaves have simply paid for expensive holidays at top resorts and hotels and then allowed Her to have and buy what She wanted.

But it does not stop there. i know of a slave who was sent out shoe shopping with one of Mistress's gurls. Others have been luckier and gone shopping with Mistress. If this happens expect Her to "rape your wallet" and you to have the privilege of carrying the bags. i know Scarlett Thorne loves slaves to take Her to the theatre too.

Now of course Mistresses - Scarlett Thorne in particular - are not mercenary and are aware of slaves financial constraints, so if you don't have the money They may accept other means of payment but only if the Domme really likes you and is feeling generous. A website redesign, plumbing, major building works or another specialised gift may do the trick. Otherwise the option for those who are not well off enough is to hope for a lifestyle arrangement.

Whichever way it happens though there are still other issues then to be dealt with to make sure your stay does not end in disaster.

Warning 1: Do not expect it to be just about sessions
Even when you pay you are paying for the privilege of being allowed to stay with Mistress. If you have paid this will include a session or sessions but it is very unlikely it will be one long session. If you have paid for your overnight or days then you should expect your Mistress' undivided attention but She will still need to sleep, eat and take breaks.

It is best to remember that if you are allowed to stay it is your chance to live as a lifestyle slave which means you have to serve Her. This means working hard. This means lots of cleaning, washing up, maybe ironing, tidying, maybe secretarial work, essentially the tedious and laborious jobs Mistress should not have to bother with Herself.

As Scarlett Thorne often says to me when i'm just maiding not even staying overnight: "Work harder you little bitch or get out!"

Even so, it will still be a great time and, from my experience, it will involve regular beatings, butt plugs, electrics and all sorts as Mistress motivates you to be a better slave for Her. If you are sessioning you may also get to be Her toilet for the time there and will certainly experience things and get a taste of a life that you only ever dreamed of.

In truth while i loved sessioning with Scarlett Thorne, nothing at all matches the thrill of being a lifestyle slave and completely at Her mercy and disposal simply serving Her.

i think one of my happiest couple of hours i spent as a slave was massaging Scarlett Thorne's feet while She watched a movie (about burying somebody alive...). All i was allowed to look at was the feet and concentrate on serving Her and making Her happy. It was bliss.

There are though definite distinctions between the paid and unpaid stays in terms of the kinky side of what Mistress will do to you and intensity. Unpaid is far more labour intensive on the part of the slave whereas paid is generally harder work for Mistress and more session orientated.

i should say my lifestyle arrangement grew from sessioning with Mistress so usually the one does not come without the other.

Warning 2: Behave well
Remember it is a privilege to be there and if you want another chance you need to be constantly respectful, not at all stroppy ever for any reason, totally grateful and, most of all, do what you are told to do without question (so long as it does not exceed your session hard limits).

i know of one slave who regularly paid a different Mistress' mortgage and thought he "owned" Her as a result. That idiot got booted out but still had to pay the mortgage (plus some).

One of the times i got into most trouble with Scarlett Thorne was having a strop about a session or rather not having a session while i was staying with Her. It almost got me the sack and was a terrible mistake. So my advice is remember the big picture, enjoy what you are experiencing and don't worry about the small things even sessions.

Warning 3: Think of a damn good excuse
If like me you are leading a double life you need to explain why you are away for a few days or a week or whatever. For me i wait for my family to go on holiday and pretend i am very busy at vanilla work, even though i am taking a break from it to serve Mistress.

But one suggestion might be a business trip, which i can tell you works but not for more than a couple of days.

The other one is to say you are going on holiday with friends. For this obviously they need to be friends your partner does not know but something he or she would not be surprised about you doing. This way you could actually pay for the holiday but give the money to Mistress instead which will please Her and guarantee you a fabulous stay as Her slave.

The most important thing is if you have the chance to stay with Mistress then enjoy and make the most of it, unless you are rich or lucky it may never happen again.

If you want advice on a tranny or sub life then e-mail me at trannyagony@live.co.uk or contact me on Twitter on @DaniTallulah.

Spring is here...clearly a good excuse to go clothes shopping

After some rather heavy duty posts on this blog recently it's time to start having a bit of fun here again and what more fun can a gurl have than shopping for new outfits?

So come on girls, spring is here at long last, you can put away the woolen dresses and jumpers and yes the sweaty pvc and latex numbers (unless you want to sweat some weight off), and start looking for some sexy clothes out there for the spring and summer of 2012.

Some people drool over porn on the internet (men mostly) but i have to say what gets me going is finding new clothes and styles and, bankrupting myself buying new things to wear out. i can spend hours (and i do!) staring at dresses and so forth on the web and wondering if i'd look good in it or if Scarlett Thorne (my fashion guru as well as the Mistress i serve) would approve, fortunately She usually does.

With that in mind and out of the kindness of my own heart i have decided to do a bit of research of what is hot now that spring and summer are upon us.

But before i wade into the array of fashion delights hitting the shops and magazines, i think i need to offer some tips for T-girls. Unlike most 'real' girls, most of us trannies have stuff to hide such as body hair or chest hair or fake boobs or whatever. It means that things like low cut tops and deep V-necks are difficult as is the general lack of coverage in the warmer months.

This means that trannies on the whole need to still look for high neckline tops and use flesh coloured tights to cover their legs. You can also expect to sweat more so you should invest in odourless deoderants (no fragrance) to cover the smell but don't make you stink like a boy which would ruin the feminine effect. Try this one for £4.

i should add that this post is really meant to help tranny girls in finding nice clothes to go out normally and enjoy their femininity in the big wide world rather than just partying. There will be a a future post on fetish wear.
Now with that advice out of the way on to clothes hunting.

According to Elle magazine, floral is definitely in...well to be honest when spring arrives floral usually is but i have to say i love this Whistle's dress they have highlighted, even if the £150 price tag makes me whince a tiny bit.

This Izabel dark floral dress for going out in the evening at BHS for £30 is a much better buy though.

And for those who like the floral look there is little better than this lovely and pleasingly short Geri day dress from Next at a mere £25.

Or check out this Te Amo (Italian for i love you, and i do) dress from New Look, my current favourite shop. The dress is just £29.99.

You can even get some really sexy floral garbs underneath. Like this bra just in at New Look for £24.99.

And there is some great new footwear out in the style. The shoe of the moment is still the wedge and i love this pair which has just landed at Barratts for a slightly costly £45.

Or for those who enjoy country pursuits...those farmers can be frisky get your hands on these wellies also from Barratts for a mere £15.

Moving on, that arbitor of good taste Vogue this year has said that the stle of spring 2012 is marine or Water World. Hard to argue when you see beautiful dresses like this...somebody please buy me one.

But a similar theme seems to have emerged with this pretty dress Alison Spot dress from Monsoon for £75. It's never the cheapest shop, but the quality is really good, although you do have to dry clean items more often than not.

And there seems to be a feeling among many of the fasionistas that this year could be the year of subtler more pastel colours. Certainly Stylemetv is pushing that with shoes as well. Look at this wonderful pair of Tesla  sandal shoes highlighted on the website.

i should warn you these shoes come in a £475 but with the warmer months upon us sandal high heels appear to be the coming thing and there are plenty of much cheaper models around, not least at New Look, Barretts or even on ebay.

On the subject of shoes, noever a bad subject to dwell on, Vogue tells us that Mega Mules are the shoes for spring 2012 and again, apart from price, it's tough to argue. Look at these.

Now this brings me on to the colour of spring 2012, which i think this year could be yellow. Somehow it manages to get the subtle pastel look but also work for those who want a bolder approach. for the latter check out this fabulous dress from Next (by the way stripes are also in this year) for £45.

For sheer elegance though i have completely fallen in love with this Cambridge Dress from Monsoon for £95...i might wait for the sale.

i must admit for make-up i turned, as i always do, to Boots, it doesn't sound glamorous but it's a great place to buy make up from. i really recommend trannies and girls that you get Collection 2000, it's an inexpensive good quality brand and you rarely go wrong with it.

But according to Boots spring 2012 trend cherry red lips are the thing, well again when aren't they? Also go for subtler looks with blusher and eye shadow. A style i like already is the smudged eyeline look. easy to do.

There will be a more detailed post on make-up coming later.

It's hard to know where to start with accessories, because there are so many things out there. but my final hot tip for 2012 girls is to go patriotic (or British if you're from another land) for 2012. It's the Olympics in London and the Queen's diamond Jubilee. There are loads of lovely Union Jack accessories out there, not least from Next which has completely gone into the spirit of the moment.

Worth considering this tasteful pink floral Union Jack bag from Next for £26.

Or also from Next this sequin evening bag for £28.

As i said, for those of you disappointed that i have not done anything on fetish wear, fear not. There will be a separate post on that coming shortly.

Well girls or gurls, enjoy your shopping trips as much as i'll enjoy mine.

If you want help or advice as a tranny or a sub contact me on trannyagony@live.co.uk or on Twitter on @DaniTallulah.

boy, cross dresser, tranny, T-girl, gurl or girl - what the Hell am I?

This week saw the world mark the annual International Women's Day, which is one of the few things the Socialists managed to achieve in the USA.

But while the day is about the struggle for women's equality in the vanilla world - women after all have a higher rank than almost all men in the BDSM world - i want to use its commemoration to look at the question of what is female identity, an issue that is very close to my heart as a tranny.

i celebrated International Women's Day as a woman or a girl. i actually spent a lot of it maiding for Mistress Scarlett Thorne in @TrannyFlat, but leading a double life where i switch from one sharply contrasting identity to the other has led me to question just what it is that differentiates the man or boy in my vanilla life and the woman or girl in my tranny sub life.

i should say now that i consider myself to be a girl/ woman/ female. i am in my heart and my head if not in my genitals, and the male existence is not actually the real me but a facade to keep a lot of other people happy. In other circumstances i think i would have opted for sex change surgery.

However, recently i was attacked on Twitter for the way my female persona is portrayed. The tweet of mine which caused offence was while i was waiting to pick up my family from a holiday after i'd spent three days solid as a girl.

i tweeted: "waiting for #vanilla family trying to think like a man which is hard after three days as a girl..."

At the time i thought it summed up my struggle with a dual identity but apparently it was "insulting" and in the discussion that followed it seemed that i was considered to be an example of a general problem with trannies using "outdated models of women."

Interestingly, i was told i should use the word "gurl" not "girl" to describe myself, in other words not a real female and pigeon holed in a particular term.

The conversation then got into what i can only call tranny snobbery about cross dressers not being real transvestites. While there are some men who are just cross dressers, the accusation is often unfairly used against those of us who can't lead a TV life full time.

On the intial argument though, i guess it's hard to say that i'm not guilty of using what some believe to be sexist stereotypes, although i believe that much of this is about context and everybody who follows me here or on Twitter knows which context i write in and that is as a tranny sub.

But it did get me thinking again about sexual identity. i'm actually bi-sexual in terms of being sexually attracted to people which further confuses things.  Am i being gay when i suck cock or straight as a woman or a lesbian with women or straight as a man?

As i say being a sub is entwined with my life as a girl, although the two are distinct they are hard to separate. This means that i express myself as a maid or sometimes a slut or whore and generally subservient as a woman. But on the other hand i am in thrall to a very powerful female role model in Mistress Scarlett Thorne. Some in the vanilla world may see a Dominatrix as a simple whore and degrading for women, i see them as enpowered and in many cases inspirational, particularly Mistress Thorne.

But those words i use about myself - maid, slut and whore  - are also often taken in a negative context by feminists but they are things i take pride in and actually have worked hard to achieve in a relatively short time and i know many other T-girls feel the same way. They are not things you can become overnight and the business of feminising yourself or being feminised is not as easy as it sometimes sounds.

It is interesting that one of the the latest feminist movements is the slut walk which goes to show that words can have their own power for different groups. It is a bit like black people using the n word about each other. It is totally different if the n word comes from a white person's mouth.

So apart from the sub identities what is it that makes me a woman? Is there more to being a woman or girl than keeping my legs closed when i sit down, as Mistress has taught me to do, or the female clothes i wear? Does wearing make up make me more of a woman? Or is it the way i walk swinging my hips? Or is it even the style of my girl's hair? Is it a greater interest in fashion than football? Is it that i like rugby for the players not the game? Is it taking a less aggressive attitude to life? Is it being able to have girly chats or the subjects which interest us more?

i would say that it is all these things, although some would point out that they could apply cross gender. One thing i'd say is that my love of sport since i started my transition has almost disappeared while my previous non-existant interest in clothes and fashion has become all consuming.

Is there a hunter/ gatherer thing in the old cave men and women analogy? Certainly i have gone from hating shopping as a man to loving it as a woman.

But better people than i have wrestled with what differentiates a man or woman, girl or boy in modern western society where roles are no longer distinct. It gets even more complicated when we delve into the transgender world where even after operations some people will refuse to consider us the sex we really are.

For trannies, especially those of us who can only live as a woman in the shadows on occasions, it is easy to grab on to the stereotypes to express a female identity because it is out there and clear. However, we trannies have to deal with even more prejudice than women from all sides so it is perhaps not surprising we seek safety in what seems to be a clear identity.

Speaking for myself, when i am dressed and sitting talking to Scarlett Thorne i feel a 100 per cent girl, She considers me as such and not a man at all. i know i act differently, my voice is different, i think differently, i take a different attitude to problems and my demeanour is different. i cannot put my finger exactly on what the difference is because it is a collection of small things but as a person who lives as both a man and a woman i know in my heart exactly what it is.

Unfortunately, for once i have not provided a clear answer or advice here, but in the end man, woman, boy, girl, gurl, cross dresser, tranny, sissy or T-girl it is perhaps a question of how you consider yourself and how you wish to express your identity.

In this sense my identity is growing stronger everyday as a girl not a gurl, as one who is proud to be a maid to a Mistress, a slut and sometimes a whore. So for me the answer to the riddle is for each of us to find our own way to a place and identity where we are comfortable and happy.

Anybody who wants help or advice as a tranny or a sub please email at trannyagony@live.co.uk or tweet me at @DaniTallulah.